Anonymous asked: Have you ever looked back at all of the events that have occurred in your life and thought, 'holy shit, I could write a book about all the crazy shit that's happened in my life?' - MA

Yeah, I’ve thought about it. I tried once, when I was in highschool. I got 17 chapters into it before I accidentally left the binder containing it underneath my desk in a class. I went back after the next period and it was gone. But I guess it’s for the best. My life was so incomplete and in a bad place at 16. 

I’ll give it another go when I’m 60. :p

Anonymous asked: It's gotten better in the sense that my mom doesn't push guys on me anymore. Even after I came out, she continued to push guys on me. Now it's just known that we don't talk about it. I know they still want me to get married to a man and have children. My parents even told me that I was their only hope left with having grandchildren. But I don't know if I want kids. For the most part it's better. Although my brother was talking about taking me to a bar and my dad was like, not the gay club. -MA

My mom still pushes guys on me even though she’s know for over 3 years and even though she has met my girlfriend of 3.5 years. She didn’t even acknowledge my girlfriend until a few months ago - she went from not talking about her at all, to referring to her as ‘your girlfriend’ to actually using her name. And inviting her to Christmas out of obligation because she invited all the other kids’ boyfriends/girlfriends too. Then glares and makes rude comments all night. 

It’s not fair for them to put that kind of pressure on you. ): If you want kids, then so be it. But your parents shouldn’t nag at you to have children solely because they want grandchildren. Plus, you have a brother. You’re not their only hope. And if neither of you wants kids, then that’s that. They can’t force either of you to have children nor not have children. That’s an extremely personal and life changing decision.

Anonymous asked: I never told my dad I was gay but I'm assuming my mom did because a couple days later my dad approached me and said if I ever wanted to talk to him about anything that he would listen and try to keep an open mind and then he hugged me. But after that he told me that I knew what was right and wrong and how I was raised and to do the right thing. I was like way to ruin it dad. Way to be an asshole. Lol Sorry for the story being so long. -MA

I’m glad your therapist was decent about it and told your parents things the way it is rather than what your mom wanted to hear. Man, I was really hopeful about your dad until I read a little further. I had the same “way to ruin it” thought. ): Has anything gotten any better as time has passed?

Anonymous asked: I begged her not to. I was crying and pleading with her not to come home. I was so scared. When I got home, I ran over to my neighbor's house and hid out there till my mom got home. She came and got me and forced me to talk to her. She ended up calling my therapist and making an emergency appointment. So later that day we went to the appointment and my mom was trying to get my therapist on her side but she ended up being on mine. I asked my mom if she ever thought we would okay and she said no.

Anonymous asked: Later that morning I tried to go home because I felt like shit but the nurse had to call my mom to see if it was okay but she wouldn't let me. I was in the nurse's office crying my eyes out because I knew my mom wouldn't be okay with me being gay. The nurse ended up letting me go home anyways because she could tell I wasn't okay. She made me promise not to hurt myself though if she let me go home. I was on my way home and my mom called me while she was at work, saying she was coming home.

Anonymous asked: Thanks hon. I hope it goes well too. I need to get out of here. I feel like I'm suffocating. My parents don't understand and they're pissing me off. If I wanted to, I could just pack up and leave but I don't want to leave things like that. I'm sorry your mom is like that. My mom came into my room one morning before school and randomly asked me 'if I thought I was gay now too.' My brother is also gay so it's hard on them. But I denied it.

So they still don’t know? I can’t believe the way she said it though. ):